It has been a while, I have literally had the most hectic few months.
I have been on both personal and professional rollercoasters. I am so so excited to be hosting BELFAST PRIDE. I haven’t been to the event since 2003! To be coming back to host PARTY IN THE SQUARE is an absolute privilege, and an honour! I am also really really excited about performing three of my own songs which I wrote. My single ‘Giving It Up’ is now officially on the Cool FM and Q Radio playlists! I am so thrilled that these two local major stations have supported me and there really is no feeling like getting calls on a daily basis saying that you are on the radio. Myself, Maff Boothroyd and Deep Matter are so chuffed with the song’s reception! There is one song in particular I am looking forward to singing. I was not quite prepared for what happened during the week….
4 weeks ago, my relationship came to a very sudden ending. I did not see it coming. To be honest, it floored me. Within a matter of hours, the person who meant the absolute world to me was no longer in my life. I felt a massive deal of loss, anger, sadness, confusion, grief – you name it. It resulted in many sleepless nights and staying with friends to try and pull myself together. I could not believe it. I was the happiest I had ever been and I fell off the shelf like a piece of china and smashed into bits. I wasn’t ready to say goodbye. 2 weeks after my break up I was on a yoga matt in Fulham in London and this song flew to my head, the lyrics, the melody, everything. I could not wait for the class to end so I could get up and run to my phone to record it. The Lyrics ‘The Grass Is Always Greener’ were sticking in my head. Within a week I had it recorded on piano by the very talented Scott Hayes. Just by coincidence on the same day, I ended up in the exact meeting point where I met my ex partner, and I found it all a bit much (I am a true pisces at heart).
When I got home I sang it into my phone and got so overwhelmed I had tears in my eyes, the song, the melody, the lyrics, being at the place we met was extremely hard for me, but I thought the song had a touch of magic, and I wanted to see if I was right.
I posted it at 11pm and woke up the following morning to 5000 views and 67 shares on Facebook and I literally sat with my jaw open. I had 20 something friend requests and messages from people in New Zealand, Spain and all over the UK and Ireland. I decided to remove it as I wasn’t expecting THAT reaction, I really wasn’t, but I was receiving calls from so many people to get it back up because it was tipped to go viral. It has been up now for just over a day and it has had 23,000 views and over 300 shares and I have been inundated with messages from people all over the world again. If I hadn’t removed it first time I would have been sitting on 28, 000 views! What this song has achieved in 24 hours is beyond my wildest dreams. It has touched a nerve with so many people. I have spent the past 2 days messaging people back who have got in touch with me about the song and how it is affecting them. Even writing like this seems surreal, I can’t believe my song is rippling across the internet and creating such a feeling. The song is growing by the minute.
Watch the video here:
Certain people have messaged saying they are coming to PRIDE now so they can hear it live. I really have no words. I have done some really amazing things in my career but the reaction to ‘The Grass Is Always Greener’ has been by far the most rewarding. I am unbelievably nervous and excited to stand there in front of 10,000 people and deliver this new song that now has a place in a lot of people’s hearts.
Trust your gut instinct. My gut instinct told me to write this song and wear my heart on my sleeve to the world. It has become a shining light in what was a very dark place.
Saturday will be so much fun, Northern Ireland still has a little cloud hovering over it when it comes to equal rights compared to the rest of the UK and Ireland. Time to stand together and start talking to one another and understanding each other. PRIDE is a celebration, and although deep down it would have been really lovely to celebrate PRIDE with my now ex-partner, I have the chance to sing a song so many people want to hear, and be with my family and friends, and I get to stay at the amazing Europa Hotel in Belfast!
Be safe, and always protect your heart, but then again if you don’t – you just might create a piece of Art.
Lots of Love